Majestic Lies; Savage Truths

2007-08-13T15:21:00.000+08:00

i am sick and tired of everything. nobody knows what i want, not even myself. i'm not being emo. i'm not complaining or being whiny.

im only freaking sixteen going on seventeen, why the hell do i have to deal with all these. fuck i dont usually swear but i really cant take it.

im just not brave enough to do anything. to face it or to end it.

2007-07-02T20:31:00.000+08:00

sadness is as feelings are, nothing but this strange entanglement of your soul to the devil. reminders of the obscure moments you find yourself insignificant. and yes, you are insignificant. its the embodiment of having everything yet nothing at all. capturing something only to have it slipping through your fingers again. your soul slowly escaping from your body, looking at yourself and shaking its head in disagreement. you tried, the weakness nothing but holding you back into the shadows of your pain. it is the weakness that you wish to obliterate, yet it is the same weakness that pulls you back into the gaping hole. and you realize you can never do anything much, never amount to something. the weakness eats into you. leaves you nothing more than an empty body, going through life with no motivation or hopes. and hopes, you realize is nothing more than a stranger who has turned its back on you, walking further away by the minute. yes, sadness is as feelings are. may you fight the devil with will and heart.

2007-06-08T14:42:00.000+08:00

hey all,
just got back from soccer camp.
its so super duper and the company was so good!
OMG.
if it wasnt for the bad showers and bad sleeps, i might have cried if it ended.
i was so yearning for my home bed. HAHAH.
the soccer, running, cards, movies, meals and everything was just so memorable.
ah well, it was really fun tho sometimes i kinda zoned off and stuff
but really, the company was darn good!
haha now its time to recuperate from all my aches.

anyhoo, miss all you old friends, meet up soon k oldies!

i love you all! life's good but my bed is better.

2007-05-25T23:06:00.000+08:00

SA SOCCER GIRLS ARE CHAMPSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!
YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

today is happy day.
first sa soccer girls triumphed.
then,
i went out for dinner wit old buds.
ball, aisyah, jean, sam, melissa!!
newton is seriously losing standard.
TSKKKK.
okay, i miss all my old friends.

HOLSSSSSSSSSssssssssssss.
time to play more soccer,
train more!

2007-05-22T10:59:00.000+08:00

i dont like sore throats.
it means looking at all those yummy yummy love-in-tummy good food,
and not being able to eat it at all.

anyhow,
tv makes me sad these days.
im missing too much of it!

2007-05-21T14:58:00.000+08:00

i feel so small in this huge world.
i have no idea if this is a good thing or a bad thing.
i feel like fucking swearing out loud.

2007-05-21T12:04:00.000+08:00

OMG DRAGONFORCE WAS FUCKING AWESOME.
having no voice, weird hearing, and BAD bad body aches are testament of it.
i hope they'll come again.
or at least bands like them come to singapore.
honestly,
i'm so happy singapore brought them in!
IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING.
dragonforce,
you guys are fucking great!

2007-05-10T20:35:00.000+08:00

haha. i think life's alright for me now.
too much to describe in detail.
so i shant describe anything!
i just wanna sit at home and watch tv all day,
watch tv all dayyyyyyyyyyy.
HAHAH but i'll miss my friends,
but i don't care,
i'll just invite em overrr to my hse or something.
i don't like studying.
i don't like whining either but i can't help it.
i wish i was like cyclops in x-men and i'll blast my homework away with my uber cool goggles.
ok whatever.
anyhow,
MANU WON THE PREMIERSHIP TITLE! 2006-2007!! anyone who sees me on MSN would know how happy i am (thanks debbie and whoever made that icon)!!
HAHAHAH.
i'm so lookin forward to my dragonforce concert
BUT,
i've never really gone anywhere alone, like something big alone beforeeeeeee.
of course my bro's gonna be around BUTTT. gahhhhhh.
anyone who seems nice going for the concert?
anyone who has good taste in music?
LOL. okay i know, fifty seven bucks.
GRRRR.

2007-05-06T13:21:00.000+08:00

and it all boils down to this.
cloud hanging over your head.
two inch nails, sharp as hell all around you, yet not piercing.
not yet.
you chose to watch tv, bum around, coffee in hand.
minor discrepancies don't bother.
trouble lies with judgement.
yours.
in the epitome of it all, you know you chose that.
yet, you push it away further;
kite in the sky,
coffee in hand again.
eyebags.
sleeplessness;
sleeplessness, driving you nuts.
like someone just waiting to feel life,
you're awaiting liberation.
and its gonna cost.
costs more than a chocolate bar at a candy store,
or a few fake smiles beneath this facade.
lies, no not to other.
but to yourself.
so choose wisely.
coffee in hand,
you fly the kite.

2007-04-21T14:30:00.000+08:00

hahha i love sa soccer girls.
they played well today,
everyone! lol

2007-04-16T12:50:00.000+08:00

im sad.
and much as i hate to admit it.
i really am.

crap.
i hate to be all emo.
i hate i hate i hate.

2007-04-14T20:30:00.000+08:00

GRINDHOUSE!

anyhow, i was really glad to go back crescent.
i just wished more people went back.
i love 4S3'06
sitt ash izz bird jean nad etc. im really really glad to see ya all.
i still am a crescentian.
i wish i was in 4S3 all over again,
but yeah,
let's all move on with these memories in us.
we'll relive it again one day.

2007-04-12T14:16:00.000+08:00

i feel better.

my thoughts are flying out of the open window and they're prancing on a field of daisies.
they do not bother me.
they do not get sucked into a black hole in me.
they do not get locked in me.
i do not throw away the key.

2007-03-31T17:34:00.000+08:00

OMG DRAGONFORCE IS COMING.
nothing can describe my joy and excitement.
so i shall not say anything.

anyhow, i miss lots of people. lucky i see nad about everyday, and i just met up with ball yesterday. i love them both so much. jean we're gonna meet up soon, i know it. aisyah too. sitt ash izz etc, hope to meet up with ya all too.

gah, nothing much to say cept sa's fine. thank god for nad, soccer and the new friends i've made cos im actually enjoying my time in school. hahhaha.

so much to say, but no idea how to place em.

all in all, YAY SOCCER! ahhahaha. and to my friends, OI SMS ME & WE GO OUT K, i'll try to make time even if im really busy. (i am) HAHHAHA. im not so lazy no moreeeeeeeeeee

2007-03-03T15:17:00.000+08:00

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the thought of it makes me happy.

anyhow, im scared of tuesday.
may manu win tonight.

300
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omg i cant wait.

i miss ball and pearlyn and sitt and nad and chloe etc so much.
really.

2007-02-27T11:05:00.000+08:00

EVERYBODY GOTTA CATCH THIS VID MY BRO JUST SHOWED ME LOL

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TtJRNyPK-lc

2007-02-25T01:17:00.000+08:00

TODAY WE HAD A CNY PARTY

the photos are as follows

2007-02-11T12:14:00.000+08:00

i really have no idea what to type. to me, i've been mostly numb to results for exactly four yrs. my PSLE results made me cry my pants off then somehow results don't mean so much to me anymore. results will just limit the choices that you have, but it still leaves you with many choices, trust me, i went to crescent with my crappy results and realized now even if i scored 299 for PSLE i would still choose crescent, seriously.

now i didnt do badly for o's at all regardless of what i said. i did above expectations for myself. and it'll be lying if i said i wasnt happy. i really was. but then, something just made me really confused/lost. and maybe what i wanted wasnt what i thought i wanted. and i'm afraid.

i only put four schools down for my choices and there's two of them i don't really want there. but i really don't know what i want, and it doesnt help that my parents are letting me make all my decisions, but i really love them for everything they've done and i know they're the best parents ever for me.

four years in crescent and friends whom i hope to have for a lifetime. but i know time will pass and i'll eventually lose contact with some of them. but i promise to try my best to keep the friendship. really, i wish the best for the friends i love most all the time. sometimes, i think i wish for them more for myself cos i don't know what i want. but i hope they're going to enjoy themselves wherever their results take them too, and that we'll still keep in contact. cos really, i wanna thank them all for being there. and it means so much, that memories, forever etched in that time of history. and you know i'll tell everyone about it. crescent, 1C3 2C3 3S3 4S3. i wouldnt want to have been anywhere else.

to the friends i really care for:
just make the right choices and see where it takes you. i'll always be hoping the best for all of us. i give you my utmost sincere thanks. really, for making life seem so much brighter and splashed with a billion colours even a HDTV cant come close to. i hope you'll be happy wherever you are.

i really hope from the bottom of my heart that we'll all be happy. and its always been my dream for everyone to be happy too. so smile and really we're the lucky people in this world and i'm so fortunate and blessed to have met you.

LOVE
siew who will still be siew forever. you can call me cheryl too. but deep down inside, i'm still me and i really love my life. its ups and downs, even if i say i don't like it at times, i really am glad cos i have the most wonderful friends and family. so who i am to complain? even if i died today i would have been happy. be it 54pts or 6pts that i got for my o's.

2007-02-08T15:19:00.000+08:00

a little step at a time,
we shan't rush.
nothing to rush for anyway,
a second in my eyes' the same as yours.
the turning point,
the deciding factor.
just like this,
the steps i have taken disappear.
the steps beyond decided for me.
like trees rooted,
we can only adapt,
we cant change the weather
or things already there for us that we cant decide.
so why bother,
lets just smile to the rain instead.
it ain't all gonna be bad.

we lie,
like the clouds that hover above,
purpose unwritten.

its just another day.
we just have to strong.

Why do we fall?
So that we can learn to pick ourselves up.

2007-02-04T00:59:00.000+08:00

what's hardest on you are the hardest things to say.
and i believe, suppressing it is the right choice.
to torment yourself rather than to torment yourself and others around you to the pure gleeful clapping hands of the bystanders,
suppression?
yes.
and i'll keep it sealed, tighter than you'll ever know.

2007-02-03T14:27:00.000+08:00

new month resolution:
to be mean only to people who have been mean to me OR people who i just cant stand the look of (sorry if i just don't like your face or whatever)
i shall stop being mean to people who do not provoke me even if i do silently not like them in some corner of my heart.

THUS, the conclusion that once again imma try to change for the better.
anyhow, im looking forward to meeting up with all my mates on results day no matter how dreadful the day is. what's done is done, plus, i've been numb to my results for ages already, hence the nonchalence each and everytime. but that doesnt stop me from hoping i've done well. haha.

note to self : why oh why oh why oh why.

Everybody seems to think I'm lazy
I don't mind, I think they're crazy
Running everywhere at such a speed
Till they find, there's no need
i love the beatles.

dear everyone, i hope to meet up with ya all.
everything will be alright.
everything will be alright.
everything will be alright.
really, no matter how much we think we've screwed up, in the end, we're still much luckier than alot of people out there. so do yourselves and others a favour, let's just try to make the best of everything even if the difficulty level's beyond our reach.

2007-01-17T21:53:00.000+08:00

IM AT IZZZZZZZZZ'S!!!!!!
stayover stayover stayover.
her house is awesomeeeeeeeeee, loadsa food.
ice cream ice cream a big tub of ice cream. YAYYY!
anyhow,
i would have skipped sch anytime for this.
its funnnnnnnnnn.
i like things not so routineee,
and im glad im getting the chance to stayover.
i mean, let's just enjoy these two mths OR lesser as much as possible.

meeting up with ball, aisyah and sam yst was great;
i think it was one of the highlights of my week.
meetup, stayover, chalet.
EXCITING!
life after sch is really exciting.
school just bores me.
nothing new,
a new place a new environment yet nothing refreshingly new.
now, that's disappointing. but with such exciting afterschool plans,
what's there to be afraid of?

stoning on long bus rides and stuff just aint my thing.
but at least there's company on the bus! hahaha.

i hope,
to enjoy more.
that's selfishly not much to ask for!

2007-01-11T14:00:00.000+08:00

now really, who am i to complain,
when i'm one of the luckiest girls in the world.
yet,

nostalgia bleeds through the air so thick it could be cut with a knife
suffocation with the incapability to breathe like one's true self
and the disabling of the mind with reluctance to try.
is it the heart or mind, that handicaps?
or both in cahoots to lie?

now then,
who is it that lies?

i wish,
to be satisfied.

2007-01-08T21:04:00.001+08:00

i really really really miss 4S3 and all my friends so much! i've even realised i love to wear my crescent uniform. gosh.

gone are the days when we told jokes, ghost stories, chatted, slept, ate, travelled, be weird around each other, camwhore, laughed for no rhyme nor reason, screamed, shouted, lazed, lazed and i took the comfort for granted.

its different now. im supposed to be seventeen. i have to stop being crazy, im supposed to study hard. and i'm supposed to miss my friends. yeah, i admit taking crescent for granted. it was my comfort zone. doing whatever we wanted, saying whatever we wanted, being strictly ourselves and happy being with each other that way, as we are.

i hope to fit in soon. seriously, ny's not bad. there's loads of nice people ard and i might just find some friends; again

committments to meeting up, i have to put in the effort. i seriously miss them.
sitt, nad, izz, jean, ball, aisyah, zee, ash even bird tho we're in the same sch. and everyone from 4S3. yes everyone. may we go crazy and throw down all insecurities we've incorporated each little precious time we meet.

the times in crescent 2003-2006. groupies, S3. the best i've ever had. and i've made the friends there for my lifetime.

so i'll really try my best, my utmost best to fit in. afterall, who are we if not mankind, as adaptability is what we are capable of.

2006-12-10T20:28:00.000+08:00

yo! i just got back from my second holiday. so i'm free from now till sch starts again! haahah.
nowwwwww, tell me if there's anything on so we can all go chill man!
lol.
anyhow, everyone is missed.
my uncle's four dogs and two cars are really cool.
i blew most of my $$$ in HK.
ate my life away..
put on way too much weight.
and have been really happy.

my tv's my hero
saving my world one show at a time!

2006-11-26T21:48:00.000+08:00

everyone around me is so angsty so what the heck, let me let off some steam too. hahhaha. so i just wish in this deep dark corner of my heart that maybe, just maybe, my aunt will either cease to exist or become a better person.

anyhow,i havent seen most of my friends for a long time, e.g jean nad sitt the whole pack. hope you guys are alright. and i'll catch up wit ya after my trip. chill and i hope you'll all be happier? i know its easy to put in words but ah well, everyone has their bad days. so may you all tide thru it soon! sincerely. sorry i cant be there for you till after my trip!

yoohooo jean, sorry i havent caught up with you, after my trip we're gonna pick a day to pig out k! then i'll pass all those maps to you! lol.

andddd BALL PEARLYN etc.,go out go out go out after my trip k. and when chloe's back we must go out go out go out moreeee. now please dun back out and i'll try not too. haha. miss you all, really!

to the rest especially my class 4S3, sorry i cant be there for the class bbq, i'll be tucked away in hongkong eating some canto food and sightseeing probably, but i'll be thinking of you all! (:

2006-11-25T21:47:00.000+08:00

FUCK YOU MABEL LEE
for making me the ansty-est saddest girl today.
my aunt of a cunt decided to make MY life miserable.
FUCK YOU MABEL FUCK YOU.

2006-11-19T15:18:00.000+08:00

dear sitt,

MY NEW TOYBOY,
and cos he's so cute,
take your handsssssss offffff himmmmm.

http://img293.imageshack.us/img293/6521/messikunid5.jpg

heeheeeheee. omg. he's sooooo cuteeeeeeeeeeee. BOTH OF EM!

2006-11-14T21:43:00.000+08:00

TODAY i received an email from my crush and i bought a messi jersey so im really happy. went out with izz nad jean and athiyah and bought some other stuff.

highlight of the day is ball's appaling reaction to my guy.

annabelle says:
SERIOUS LOOKINGLY EVIL
annabelle says:
he's too mysterious for me man
annabelle says:
like too much going on in his mins
annabelle says:
mind
annabelle says:
trying to hatch an evil plot
//no news is no news. tu amor. says:
man, ball you can be those detective type, you're like LINDO. making me see black where there was once white
annabelle says:
urgh but its all for your own good. teaching you to lose your innocence but not your hope
annabelle says:
HOW TO LAUGH FOREVER
annabelle says:
if you get hurt you cant laugh forever anymore
annabelle says:
WHAT IF YOU GET CHEATED

LATER

annabelle says:
you have friends like me to talk to real life you go and talk to a person with wrinkly hands and a drooling man trying to cheat a young girl of her innocence for what

and i was showing the rest like izz nad sitt and aisyah long ago and they thought he was cuteeeeeeee. very very very cute. hot hot hot. HHAHAAHA look at balll!!!

anyhow, i must study for historyyyyy!!! and i gotta look for my meatloaf album. tskkk.

2006-11-03T15:01:00.000+08:00

it's all coming back to me now.

anyhow, i'm not prepared. (look at sitt's blog)
yay i'm leaving singapore on 28th nov.

need to find that bloody album.

tu amor

2006-10-24T22:18:00.000+08:00

someone please whack me on the head and tell me to start studying.

bully bully bully bully!@

2006-10-08T16:02:00.000+08:00

and if you're reading this.
anybody,
stranger or friend or foe.
help me.

pray that my aunt ceases to exist right NOW.

2006-10-08T15:58:00.000+08:00

anyhow,
i wish everyone did well for prelims.
do you know the possibilty of meeting someone in this earth of 6billion people?
even more,
becoming friends?
i'm still torn between jcs.
sa or pj?
and my family wouldnt understand anyway.

so,
i'm glad for everyone.
and just a note,
the farewell assembly is farewell to four yrs of your life in this sch.
not to the friends,
cos we'll be seeing each other again.

2006-10-08T15:49:00.000+08:00

hhahaha. its so funny when i think about it.
i mean, i distinctly remembered telling my brother
"what's it to me. i do all this shit for myself"
and now,
even the tv cant pull me up.

its not about what or how i do,
its not about pleasing you.
i tried, i wanted just a word or two.
yet this silence became your tool.

so i was a mix of emotions.
i don't care.
i'm willing to give up anything in the world.
anything.
even my o levels,
to have you make your promises true.
what is it to me, if its naught to you.
its not important,
whats important is that everyone is happy.
are you?
are we?
is she?
i bet hella she is.
breaking up families is her forte,
i'll fuck her right up in her face.

cant you see what everyone else can see?
that your sister is fucked up?
i'm so angry,
you should just go stay there.
yet i'm so sad,
when i try to comprehend.

i'll give up everything if you would just stop going over to them.
its like we're your second priority.
maybe we are.

and the worst,
is that you're blind to all that we're doing for you.

2006-09-28T20:44:00.000+08:00

2-4-6-8
who do we appreciate
1-3-5-9
messi messi you are MINE.

lol.
past my weirdness today,
i realized some stuff.
like how i should start studying.lol.
ok, i mean i try a little.
but its not enough.
like not enough yarn to sew a sweater,
its so incomplete.

anyhoo, im still lovin' my tv,
and trying to enjoy every single day of sch,
no matter how torturous it is.
we end late, start early, go back on weekends.
like i should bring a sleeping bag and change my home address on my IC.

STUDY STUDY STUDY

seems like i should be getting somewhere,
somehow,
i'm neither here nor there.

2006-09-14T16:31:00.000+08:00

yo my homies.
hmm. so many things to say.
so little energy to type.

ok. rockstar ends today. lukas<3
idol chasing drains you.
one week holiday was crappy cos its either guilt or pain.
hard to choose aint it?

nowwwwww,
i love the f word. i lovee...
you wun get it if you arent on the same channel as me,
literally.

anyway.
DEAR FERGIE, (not the BEP one)
please dun play brown or fletcher anymore.
its really painful to watch.
pls play vidic or evra instead.
i love manu, really.
LOVE SIEW

btw,
nakamura's hot. lol.
where's my messi!
i love the tv!~
dont mention prelims.
i really cant rmb studying at all 'cept for math and lit.
lolllllll.

2006-08-05T17:55:00.000+08:00

i wish someone would just take my hand and walk me off into the sunset now.
i don't want to live up to reality.
now, do you?

i'm still watching tv, using the net, rubbishing around, shopping, chilling, when i really shouldnt be. so i'm so stressed out over not being stressed.
i hope to awake from my dream.

i REALLY havent started studying. and i'm freakin out, but still not doing anything about it.
it's just so unjustified, my future.

what have you done for yourself?
/
this game we play;
the barrier;
the fork in the road;
even the wind can't tell us where it's gonna blow,
nor the sun where it's gonna shine.

do we tell ourselves to take the next step,
or do we just stand there till the sun sets.
cold, alone;
you set the standard.

i love my family.
i do, no matter what i say.
seriously.
so i should do this for them if not for myself.

2006-07-21T20:29:00.000+08:00

haha i'm so glad ash watches rockstarrrrrr.
finally someone to click with!
LUKAS PHIL AND MAGNI <3
lol.

anyway,
i decided b'days are really tiring.
and that me ball and chloe laugh at diff times.
so when one person is laughing, the other two will give weird faces.
but me and chloe click better.
ball's the "so you think you very funny la" person.
HahhaHAHA. but i love ball (me and chloe got secret name for her) all the same,
just like i love orange juice!

school's fun.
atikah sp jean nad sitt melissa grace judy zee etc. crack me up.
happy racial harmony everyone.
I'm ANTI-RACISM.
lol.
now, that's a bold statement.

2006-07-20T18:41:00.000+08:00

why am i so lucky?
i was praying for it and now it came true.
2014, here i come.
i promise.

awwwwwwwwww.

2006-07-19T17:35:00.000+08:00

OMG. im so excited.
there's this humungous wave of people holding their arms out to embrace me but they're yakking away in espanol and i feel so lost.
hahah in case you're wondering, i've been joining some forums.
i shall learn "i love you" in all the languages there is, cos i love to LOVE.
so come right up to me and i'll try to proclaim my hidden love for you.
i meant, only friends & family.
my sweet pure love is already meant for someone else whom i'll meet soon (give me a few yrs)

HAHAHH now you can laugh at my post.

OK
anyway, as usual, i'm discovering new shocking discoveries. but i'll keep my shocking discoveries to myself so you can go discover them yourself.

mas and i click on the 9pm show. AHAHHA. YAY!

NEXT UP
birthday presents to get
MANY birthday presents to get.
so chloe, quick let's go hunt for em.

hmmmm. so many people make me laugh all the time. without them, escuela will be shit. now, someone please entertain me. e.g. nad mas jean sitt izz ball melissa grace etc. HAHHA.

2006-07-10T21:36:00.000+08:00

No siento penas.

in the most feeble spanish available. i took hours trying to read this webpage. and i commented. and i almost died doing it. there's no grammer. just pure substitution. so it spurs me on even more trying to learn espanol. and im sore that my keyboard cant type those squiggly wiggly signs. so how do i convey my thoughts! grrrrrrrrr.

anyway, on a lighter note. i love ball (tho she loves to post unglam pics of me on her blog and i cant tag her now) cos we both practised for oral like crazy doofoos. and the topic was one that we tested each other before. HAH. so i was like so happy for that moment.

"I was nothing more than an almost innocent bystander.
oh bugger"

anyway, world cup finally ends. im glad italy won. me and sam are really glad. and headbutting's the new fad. hee it rhymes. cant wait for premiership to start. im always waiting.

ok my classmates are really funny. me jean and sam have world cup fever. i concluded. as long as its during world cup. its the world cup fever. lol. and ball had it too ): awwww. we're all this sick bunch of people. im not coming to sch tmr. my sore throat's getting worse. i hope i dint spread it to the examiners. plus i hope nad sitt ash aisyah etc did well for their malay orals. and that ball melissa celeste jean suhong etc did well for chinese. lol. and thanks to those for caring (: really, my most sincere thanks. and nad, dun be so sad for your oral topic. i wish you the best.

i'm so mixed with my feelings now. i hope my grandma.. just goes w/o pain. and i hate this someone so much i don't know what to say. it's just so. tough.

TO SAM: gattuso might come to manu k. lol. but cannavaro's not going to. hahha. duh! and lippi might come to manu too. now let's say hooray!

P.S. i saw mi amor's home and he has a webcam. now someone help me.

2006-07-07T21:42:00.000+08:00

see maybe,
i don't really wanna know.

why do people still live if they know they're gonna die some day?

people around you;
they can make a good day bad
OR
a bad day good.
choose the latter and you realise you have friends and family around you that care.

this is one hell of a plunge down that me, myself, will drag my ass up to.

AHHHH melissa ball aisyah jean sam judy etc. crack me up so bad.
sitt ash nad izz zee etc, i really love my class.
today i found out,
i really have alot of friends around me.

2006-07-06T19:56:00.000+08:00

heeheehee

thank god i stayed up for the entire france portugal match, cos then i can see portugal lose. wahhahha. i hope italy wins the world cup!

anywayyyyy, today is jokes and ghost story day. LOL! today i laughed till my tummy ached and my throat got worse!

overall, today is quite a fun day! and tmr is not so fun day cos i dun like my phys ed profesor. she is just malo.

hmmmmmm. i shall go compile songs for the class now. since i wanna make sure my phys ed profesor eats her bloody words back up her asno. (gee today i'm a teensy weensy bit bitchy)

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. two more matches left! then i can sleep regularly.

i love my amigos!

2006-07-05T17:16:00.000+08:00

sigh sigh sigh.

hahaha i think im the only person that watched the entire germany italy match. and im regretting it now cos my sore throat has just taken a turn for the worse. but given a choice, i'll still watch it. lol.

i hate sore throats ): so im like very sad girl now. tskkkkkkkkkk.

anyway, let me think of what interesting things there are to say.
i've got new shoes that i hope the sch wun say NO to. say NO to drugs but YES to my freaking shoes la. i was so pissed when they disapproved my vans. tskk. nad's got new shoes too. but hers are guy dunks and mine are more like girlish nike football funny thing. sitt lent me her juanes so im trying really hard to learn the lyrics. anything wit amor i memorise first. in case messi pops out of nowhere, i can recite it to him immediately.
today, free period was spent doin up my committments and watching jean's youtube vids. atikah cherie jean mas me were all so fascinated by 30 yr old man who loves his tiny pikachu bag! HAHAHAH. its cute. and the weird banana song. lol. izz and nad were looking at disgusting XXX-rated stuff.

escuela still sucks big time. what's new?
oh something's really new!

i've recently learnt something about someone and it scares me greatly. if a snake sheds its skin, it's still a snake. but if it turns into tree, that's a problem. so i'm wondering if it has always been a tree, or was the snake just part of its play. i feel kinds sad about this actually.

sore throat go away,
come again another day,
siew here wants to go and play,
sore throat go away.
pretty pretty please!
there's only two more matches to go!!

2006-07-01T17:42:00.000+08:00

HAHAHH once my KG98 comes out. im gonna GRAB IT MAN! this is the phone i keep telling everyone about! the chocolate one. but different model from the one available now. OOOOOOOOH i've been waiting for so long already k!

2006-07-01T13:50:00.000+08:00

i will miss my messi till i see barca play again. afterall that's where i first saw him. lol.
superb game last night. it was really on equal footing. sad they had to play each otherrrrrr.

i will psyche myself to study; right?

i need bags, tees, shoes etc.
and i hate it that so many online stores only ship within U.S.

hola everyone. cant believe its been a week of escuela! its not that baddddd. but some profesores need to reflect as much as i do. i know i mix in some weird spanish here and there. lol. sorrrryy. and oh SITT!! pearlyn wants to learn spanish tooooo!! hahaa! YAY!

so much things to do, so little tiempo. sigh!

2006-06-28T17:06:00.000+08:00

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY! my eyes are practically closing but my brain says NO. oh you stupid brain. don't make me bang my head against the wall. HAHA. yeah as you can see, im online as i pounced on my bed and realized my brain was too alert to switch to goodnight mode and tho my eyes are slits, i can still see the computer screen. and the lack of sleep resulted to me doing weird stuff. so don't say im weird!

anyway, i only slept for less than two hrs yesterday. stupid spain got out and my dad was saying something about holland & spain being the self destructors after reaching final 16 cos that's what they always do. lol. watching football wit my dad and bro equals laughing laughing laughing cos we'll be screwing players that ought to be screwed. HAHAH. watching the spain match made me depressed cos i wanted them to win then whack the brazilians asses out. tskkkk. now all the ah pehs in france will have trouble wit brazil. humph. we all think it'll be a GERMANY-ENGLAND final. hahah hooray italy won. and i hate portugal.

enough about football, tho thanks to it im going insane. i sleep on average four hours a day holiday or not. and ashikin, scared my pants off with an article about having little sleep during the hols. something about obesity, bad skin, being unhealthy = shorter life, heart problems. and as you know, i have heart problems and high blood pressure, i really ought to sleep more. hahha. but then again, there are people like jean that bathe at 1am or something. see! first person to bathe everyday in singapore! lol.

me izz nad jean were stoning in the lib as it was free period. you-tubing, laughing, doing our thang and knowing our math teacher hates us. amath wit lucy tan equals to PURE DETERMINATION to keep my eyes open. i know ball was sleeping, no wonder i felt some aura behind me going "Zzzzzzz" and it made me wanna sleep so badlyyyyy.

and now i cant sleep. i think i shall force myself to the bed and hope to dream of messi so i'll really wanna sleep. lol.

ok. escuela estupida. (there's supposed to be something above the 'u' in 'estupida' but i cant type it. and my spanish is improving cos i typed this from memory)

el siew ama messi <3

2006-06-24T00:12:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MESSI!

for your birthday, i give you my love & support.
if you want me in person, then send me an air ticket.

LOL.
well, all the best anyway! love love love.

2006-06-23T14:30:00.000+08:00

i am very lucky. and so are probably all of you here.
there are people out there struggling to even be one fifth of the type of life we're living.
the amount of people that are rich, really makes up the minority in the world, i think.
my hands are shaking. i wonder why.
the hype of this world cup, really is over the limit i think.
hahah.
anyway, i've been shopping so i'm really happy!

2006-06-21T18:57:00.000+08:00

i hope my gran will stay alright.

EL SIEW AMA MESSI! EL SIEW AMA alot of people! ahahahah. qiero ir MESSI! i know, i'm trying to string sentences wit some words i remember. HAHAHA. feeble spanish!

I LOVE MESSI!

2006-06-21T12:11:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHH JEANNNN!!!! THEY'RE GONNA SHOW GOONG ON CHANNEL U SOON!!! AHAHAHAHA. you see la. talking about saving money. they're gonna show it even before the vcd/dvd is out!!! *VERY SURPRISED*

2006-06-20T15:59:00.000+08:00

hey hey.

i've been blogging cos i've been using the computer which is not often i use it but i'm waiting for chloe's email everyday. humph!

anyway, i decided. i wish i were rich so then i could help everybody around me. i swear i wouldn't be selfish and just shop and spend on myself. i would take everyone out of singapore, to destress a little. i would help all the poor people. i will condemn the rich that are not helping. but then again, i'm not rich. so my voice is barely audible. so i'm dreaming and hoping and i'll end up struggling in a 9 to 5 job in the future. and i'm gonna HATE that. (OK this is where i'm watching too much tv esp. OPRAH, she changes all my perspectives)

anyway, i wish i wish i wish i could use floo powder or i could apparate to germany. to frankfurt, cos that's where i wanna be now/soon. with the argentinians and dutch.

anybody loves magic around here? and has money to spare?

oooooooh can't wait for o levels to end. HAAHAHHA i HAVE to save money k!

it sucks when the right things don't seem so right anymore, and i don't know what to hope for. i just hope my gran will be alright.

2006-06-18T00:54:00.000+08:00

OLA ME AMIGOS! (esp sitt, my gemelos espanoles)

the past few days, weeks rather, have been spent taking a neoprint a day wit jean with different people. LOL. i have more than a week's worth of neoprints with her. we decided, once holiday ends, neoprint taking time will like be cut down. humphhhh. and oh to add on to my exciting week, i've been eating fast food for lunch every day, i should FAST from fast food. hahahah. i mean, im not even near a fan of fast food, yet i eat it everyday ):

oh, also the holiday's been exciting as i've been hanging out wit so many people! except ball, shuwie, delia, pearlyn. EH! when are we going out!!! hahhaah. i've chilled wit sam, aisyah, suhong, bizhi, sitt, nad, jean, kelly, ash, judy etc etc etc. LOL. really, there's alot of people im getting to know better everyday and its a good thing! i likeeeeeeee. cos we hang out now, then after that we study till our guts bleed, then we go parrrrty again. HAHAHAH. neat plan. 'cept the studying part stretches for months.

anyway, there's only a week left and i cheat myself to tell that heyyyyy, a day is really long! and its working. cos my days are extremely longgggg. i hardly sleep (since i don't get eyebags, i take advantage of it) LOL. the world cup hasnt taken its toll on me yet. maybe its cos im used to staying up. everybody out thereeee, stretch your days so that time passes slower! HAHAHA.

LAST THING. world cup. what can i say. everybody who knows me, sitt & sam especially. should know who i'm supporting and stuff and all that's happening. nothing else 'cept all's been fine and i'm gonna marry messi one day and keep villa as my secret lover and heinze too and etc. i'm so fickle. ok. best of luck holland argentina! and i hope everyone is happy with everything.

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO ALL THE DADDIESsssss! (:

i'll be back soon!~

2006-06-11T00:02:00.000+08:00

waiting for argentina match. DUH i wouldnt miss it for the world even if it starts at the most obscure timing. 3am is nothing i suppose. better than 5am at least. lol. then my family's gonna order mcdonald's breakfast cos they keep advertising the delivery thing to make people hungry. hahaha.

i just realized i miss so many people. delia, pearlyn, chloe etc. hahah. how my heart aches just like watching drama serials. i must make it a point to keep in touch with my friends more, cos they do mean alot to me. and BALL! let's study soon (: i'll give up my dramas, tv, lazing, and pick a day where my dad's working so i can be productive like you. LOL! (:

2006-06-09T14:19:00.000+08:00

"Cue your craziness, fly your flag, and let the soccer matches begin"

been quite long since i last properly blogged right? LOL. anyway, here's a recap of what's been happening in my life.

#1 watching dramas all day long and trying to study at the same time. this goes on for like 12hours a day when im crazy. then my entire family will just stare at me for hogging the tv in attempt to make me feel guilty but i'dve been to busy crying or laughing or concentrating on the show. did i mention that xiaotian is really hot! haha.

#2 going to school in the morning and going out after that for FOOD. hahah. that day after school, melissa ball aisyah fera jean and me went to marina square. after lots of careful deliberation, we skipped watching a movie, going bowling and k-boxing to go eat seoul garden. i think i laughed till there were tears in my eyes and i had cramps cos melissa was giving all those IQ questions and we were like "repeat repeat" and trying to give weird answers. HAHAHHA. then aisyah is like IQ200 (LOL) and she could solve all these first within a short period of time. and ball would be next. HAHAHAH. ok it was just damn funny la. and we actually went MAJOR class outing in the morning that day at tbp. more than half our class was there. HAHAH. and the taxi guy was going something like i brought some teacher and student from some place to science centre and we were like "hahaha ok" HAHAHAHA. ok. then i told myself that the next day i shant eat anymore. then i went to meet my family for a movie.

#3 met nad and ash in the morning. took a train to school and we were all droning cos we're all tired students from crescent. HAHAH. and english course is like one of the most boring courses in the world. if you would ask me, i think one has to know how to connect with your audience before starting a class. so even though it was useful, i was bored to hell and back. and OH I NOTICED BALL FELL ASLEEP DURING THE COURSE. ahahahah. see i said it was boring. after that i went with jean to town. since nad wasnt there and the rest had amath, there was only the two of us. so me and jean went far east, everywhere was closed, hence we went to long john and bought a drink and fries and talked about everything under the sun while waiting for kelly to come. jean is a taiwan addict and she knows everything about xiaotian, her yuanchang, and hejunxiang. HAHAH. then kelly came and we met fera and ball. so we went pepper lunch for what else LUNCH. Hahahah. laughed at ball's rebellious strand of hair, took neoprint and i went to my grandma's.

HAHAHAH. that's quite a good recap of all that's interesting happened. i miss sitt cos i havent seen her for a long time. and oh world cup begins tonight. so yeah. NETHERLANDS ARGENTINA and DUH i will support asian teams! hahaha. my dad told me that if the next world cup is held in south america, WE'LL GO. so OLE WORLD CUP 2010 and at present 2006.

that's all i suppose. shall blog about my exciting next week where i have emath EVERYDAY. wahahhha.

2006-06-05T20:48:00.000+08:00

OMG IM SO FREAKIN SHIT DEPRESSED NOW.
i should seriously think about stopping my addiction to drama serials.
WHY WHY WHY WHY must he suffer so muchhhhh. stupid brainless girl, choose HIM la.
if i ever do meet him in real life, i will kill him for wasting all my tears on this show that is all fake (DUH they all acting only what)

the day a person's life should end is when he/she no longer yearns to love.

*CRIES* THIS IS SO DEPRESSINGGGGGGG ):

2006-06-02T20:59:00.000+08:00

Ursprache
tell me life as it is;

i think i'm dying. LOL.
i'm not kidding.
though i wouldn't exactly resent it in any way.

2006-05-29T00:29:00.000+08:00

HOLY CRAP~
i've got a hot new computer. i mean HOTTTT.
so come down and check the jiggy out when yer got the timeeee.
lol.
its so hot!
it's sleek black, big screened and smoking awesome!~
i love my sexy new computer.
what an accompaniment to my sexy huge plasma tv! (:
YAY!

2006-05-26T17:32:00.000+08:00

i wish i could help everyone in the world that truly needs me,
but then again i have so much problems of my own.

i forgot all that i was fighting for,
and i will wait to find out,
maybe i do remember.

maybe i just can't afford to,
maybe i just am not supposed to.

2006-04-29T21:41:00.000+08:00

I'm really worried for rooney.
fuck ferreira.

manu didnt play well. i've got nothing to say 'bout their loss.
i've waited 3 seasons.

watching soccer drives me to death.
sigh.

2006-04-25T17:51:00.000+08:00

turn it up!

ok. GO HOLLAND & ARGENTINA. im rooting yer. no surprises there. the surprise is for me even blogging. LOL.

GO MESSI HEINZE RAFAEL KAKA! and loads moreeee.

cant wait. im always waiting. why make me wait? HAHAHA

ok. to the intellectual people :

we went b&j's today for "f" ice cream. we talked in a new "l". We "b" as usual. sat around at KFC. went totally "h". sitt got a "L", so now me nad and her are "s" people.

imma happy girl.

OLE WORLD CUP! (:

school is REALLY interesting.

4S3 cracks me uppppp!

2006-03-12T13:24:00.000+08:00

REGRET>>>>

that's my topic of the day.

as i was saying. i was too afraid to listen.
so what?

DAH. i listen. i dont show. i absorb. i remember. i don't tell.

the course didnt teach but it reminded.

i am happy, right?
i know i am lucky.
but happiness.
who am i to judge.
yet it is determined by oneself.

2006-03-07T18:27:00.000+08:00

IM OVERATTACHED TO MY TV.

they showed oscars, post parties and the manu match all in the night.

so the result is : I GOT TWO HRS OF NAPPING TIME.

hahahah.

did i say how many hot people i saw on the red carpet?

2006-03-02T16:02:00.000+08:00

step into the mirror
and the sun shines on you
you can ride on the wings of an angel
laugh at the roses
lie on the grass;
step back out
and you sigh
you worry and frown
tears worth more than the ocean
tell you what you hope.

and you wish you had another life
where the sun is always shining
even if it meant no rainbows
cos that would mean bad weather.

AH. today's a bad day. its one of those days where you look ahead and you say CRAP! SHIT! ARGH! cos you know all that you want is too difficult to achieve. not impossible, but difficult.

2006-02-27T17:55:00.000+08:00

THERE GOES MY BABY!

i decided i love my tv sooooo much and i have no emotional attachment to my computer at all.

i want to leave singapore and take on the winter olympics. oooh skiing.

i miss smith and im so sad for him.

congrats manu on carling cup. but please, TRY HARDER NEXT SEASON.

so many hot guys on tv.

so many movies to watch!

YOU MAKE ME FEEL LIKE DANCING! <3

2006-02-09T21:05:00.000+08:00

OOOH. train ride was super fun today.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DELIA! I <3 YOU very much! hahaha. four yrs of friendship and counting. happy sweet sixteen k! (tho you were so mean to take unglam shots of me tsktsk)

ANYWAY i saw the most beautiful rainbow in the world. i took a photo of it. REAL rainbows make me so so so happy! this one was just PERFECT! even my camera could capture it. that's just how obvious and colourful and smashing it was.

today train was just me nad lee (elizabeth i dun think she could squeeze) hahha. we missed celeste. it was so funny. we were "talking" then it started to rain! its literally a dream come true!

PE was fun. me sitt and nad relived yesteryear wit SOCCER! (:

so many movies to watch, and im so busy. it sucks ):

WHOOOOOOOOO. im so gonna be a manager of a club next time. and i shall call it "siew's bar". ok fine joking. im gonna think of a cooler name! heeeeeee.

P.S. i wanna go fishing. why everyone dun wanna go wit me? ):

" i can sing a rainbow sing a rainbow sing a rainbow too"

2006-02-08T17:27:00.000+08:00

C: i dun think i appreciate pranks much.

ANYWAY, ohmygawd ECCENTRIC!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. LOL. BOYCOTT BABY!

HAHHAHAHA. (i just felt like laughing)

i'm really glad that my ex-classmates still remember "spikies". im really glad. i love S3. whoo. AWARDS (:

class is hilarious.

NELLY was in the train today. love his blinggggggg. LOL.

WHAT DAY IS IT GONNA BE TMR?
punk, hip-hop, ghetto, metal, indie etc?

HEE.

2006-02-07T15:43:00.000+08:00

oh i forgot my bro's having a party today (again).
then i came home early and there's a big bunch of people. hehh.

ANYWAY. nad was talking about valentine's day today and she's real mean cos she doesnt think of people like me, whose boyfriends cant be there wit me on that day. wahahaha. one too busy golfing in dubai, one injured, one busy acting. TSK.

LOL joking joking.

anyway, school's so dreary. i went to the docs yesterday. oh i HATE doctors. ok. im afraid of doctors. but this doctor was nice (: i've gotta see a cardiologist for a follow up tho. pfft.

PISS OFF EVERYONE. i've gone off to call my date for valentine. hopefully, his swings are pretty fine!

(it rhymes)

im being weird today.
cos its GHETTO day!

2006-02-03T12:23:00.000+08:00

hahha. i just realised they show the american time when i blog.
its like noon here but only 8pm there.
and im tired at noon.

2006-02-03T12:16:00.000+08:00

NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
did they cancel the simpsons on star world?
i switched on the tv yesterday and they were showing american idol.
BUT i've been watching simpsons on star world since forever!
how can they do this.
IM GONNA WRITE A LETTERRRRRR.
i love my simpsons. *cries*
they make me so happy ):

anyway. im just takin a break from bio.
whoa. i've been at it for hours and i only have er 14 slides.
my mouse is screwed up, my powerpoint cant be viewed and there are so many things that are unavailable on my lousy outdated crap powerpoint software.
so, i use photoshop first then just paste the crap there.
taking me HOURS.
BUT, im happy.
im so shagged these days.
i really want to study hard.
i am trying.
(:
be proud of me.

DID FERGUSON WAKE UP FINALLY?
or will i see fletcher again the next match.
keep that lineup old man.

haha. i was talking to my bro the entire night about manu while doing the bio stuff.

2006-02-01T17:13:00.000+08:00

just went to town wit lian and leemin. i got my salad. the first healthy thing i've had in days.

CHINESE NEW YEAR = INDULGENCE = SINS = GUILTY PLEASURES

someone ought to shot me.
dreamtheater = HEARTBROKEN (my brother persuaded me not to go cos he cant make it and the best tix were sold out) octavarium aint the best they had anyway. sighh. ): i LOVE dt tho. i do. i'll travel and watch em by ten yrs' time. just like the world cup. YAY (: i love to travel.

anyway, CNY was really run. i slept at like 3am on friday, then 3am on saturday, then 5am on sunday 7am on monday and 4am yesterday. tho i slept like 6-8 hrs at times, i felt SHAGGED. but it was really a fun year. my cousins crack me up big time. then scared me wit ghost stories. LOL. then played drinking games, gambled wit bigshots (people with ALOT of money to spare), talked alot and watched soccer. HAHAH. i love all my relatives. yep i do. it was really fun. we talked till amost morning already and i was paranoid from all the ghost stories. my dad grabbed my head in the car from behind, i screamed, covered my face and my contact lens fell. so i was blinded in one eye. LOL.

QUOTE OF THE DAY : people NEVER run when they're scared. those you see in movies screaming and running is BULLSHIT. hahha.

anyway, im so glad for manu, they better do well in FA cup, carling and hold on to second for EPL. im soooo proud of park. i <3 park. hahaha. please. manu have the HUNGER.

happy cny everyone (:

2006-01-26T14:48:00.000+08:00

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN PEARLYN!!! (:

awwww. both me and nad are down wit flu and fever. can you imagine the things we go thru together? HAHAHAHA. its really funny. forced to drop amath tgt, fall sick tgt, TMR wear cheongsam tops tgt. LOL.

anywayyy.... i hope pearlyn had a great birthday and i hope everyone at school missed me. haha. it sucks to fall ill. the medicine im takin (yes im self medicating) makes me feel really queasy. it sucks. and CNY is so near, what a day to fall sick.

i've been drinking so much barley/ (chinese stuff to make you get well faster) that my tummy's exploding.

i have been studying. i think that's a great start. the problem is i have absolutely no target to gravitate towards to. that SUCKS. i watched oprah today and i REALLY think i have no ambition. cos it sucks to be realistic. its like i have no interest cos they dun offer me no thing i want. its like look at the subjects i take. why cant they have subjects that'll help you in your career. photography (i always wanted to do that) / architecture / marine biology / archeology/ EVEN geology's more interesting. i want something HANDS ON. with passion comes results i think. now im just catching whatever life's throwing at me. so i (like the rest of all sec four singaporeans HOPE to go to a good junior college wit FANTASTIC o level results) will work hard with whatever i have so as not to let anyone down.

i dun want any regrets in life. but THATS impossible. im just too afraid to take that big leap and be different and actually do something totally unethical.

anyway, my heart is giving me problems again. i have concluded (so did my doctor) that im over exerting my poor heart. but how i wish it'll silently eat me up from the inside like a predator. im afraid of the BIG D. doctors, not death. hahhaha.

to all the people i hate, good luck wit your pathetic lives.
to all the people i SECRETLY hate, thats the joy with life. you never know when its gonna SMACK you HARD in the face. ****** and ******. hahaha.
to all the people i love, i love you. and i love alot (:

the world is colder than the north pole and its found its way to ME. i've learnt to DISLIKE. a bad sign. irony is, i learnt to dislike only because dislike found its way to me first. take that.

2006-01-19T18:23:00.000+08:00

woooooo. elizabeth followed me to cut hair today. its like SWEAT IT OUT day. wahahhaha. mass run then very strenous pe. captain's ball!

aisyah tells lousy timebomb jokes. at least ball does it a BIT better. HHAHAHHA!

elizabeth is nice. we witnessed an accident in 105 k! scarrrryyyy. we bet its hit and run. what a cruel world it is. then someone stole a book in the bus. tsskkkk.

manu won 5-0. hurray. i love my 42 and heinze DUH! rossi's over adorable. yipeeeee (: poor park's injured i love park too!

2006-01-15T15:07:00.000+08:00

"you make me feel like dancing"

oh my ulcer is healing already! i can talk properly.. EXCEPT when i eat it still hurts. like the tom yam my brother cooked today. whoa. youshould see what greediness does to you. hawhawhaw.

stupid manu. PFFFfffttttt. imma disappointed. they should be feelin worse. liv won spurs. i like mido, lee and davids! i like spurs. and i like liverpool too. alonso's like magical wit the ball. WAHAHAH.

my house is painted alr. but the smell still lingers around. i've watched two movies today and im going on to the third.

13 going on 30, fatal attraction and something's gotta give. WHEE. i LOVE HBO and MGM. and that stupid karaoke channel cracks me up.

2006-01-14T09:22:00.000+08:00

oh my goshhh. im so tired. its like 9.30am now. i havent woken up at 9.30am since like first week of december when i had to go to sch for some extra lessons k. its so early that my eyes can adjust to the world yet. its all blurry. pffffffft. anyway, im up so early cos there are like six people in my house, repainting my entire house. the smell of paint's gonna be fatal i swear. i think i should take a break and leave house later if i can. haahaha. my house's only three yrs old and my dad wants to have it painted again. gosh. A Painted House. hahahaa.

anyway, schools been boring the past few days. as usual. armed wit a time table means a routined life for me. duh! of corse there are the usual hiccups of teachers not coming. hehh. i've been good and have been doing my homework. something i usually dun bother to cloud my mind with since primary schools. wahahha. im gonna study hard, right?

cca day yesterday and im glad i had to chance to catch up wit pearlyn and just hang out wit her. i've missed her so much! seems like some junior had been bitching bout our class. oh the horror! ahhahh. horror for the junior i meant.

anyway, i decided maybe if im in a good mood and allowed to cook. i shall go cook EGGS for the painters. hahhah.

i want to go to the esplanade concertssssss. but tix starts at $48+. pffft. it comes wit a complimentary drink tho. i wanna watch SSO this year since i dint manage to last year. and i wanted to try and win kenny g tickets from class 95 last night at 1am! hahah. i also cant wait to watch memiors of a geisha and catch le grand voyage wit sitt. i went to look for the thing in the newspapers after sitt told me bout it. sounds really nice!

havent bought chinese new year clothes yet. HOWHOWHOW?

so many things to do so little time. ahaahah.

and people stop laughing at my ulcer thing k. humphhh. evilllllLLLL!!! hahha. poor nad tho!

2006-01-10T17:27:00.000+08:00

sitt got me started on quizzes. AHH IM ADDICTED.
i love the rain too. its so... peaceful.
my mom's baking again! YAY (:
i better do my work later.
I MISS PEARLYN AND CHLOE.
holla everyone. HAHAH.

2006-01-04T18:42:00.000+08:00

haha. i just played this game online. some navigational game. then just when i was about to complete. this CAT picture, vicious cat picture, came out! THEN THERE WAS THIS MOST PIERCING SCREAM EVER. i screamed like hell and ran! hahahah. my aunt sent me the game thing! ahhhhhh. she saboh me k. i was so scared la!

anyway, i shall blog bout yesterday and today since im in a good mood. hahaha.

first day of school was boring. and after school was CRAP! it was just this bot of bad luck that hit all of us. ash me and nad. hahha.ash lost her wallet. nad travelled to lavender and couldnt make her ic. and i travelled to queensway and couldnt get the school skirt. hahha. nad's dad is really hilarious tho and nad's mom is SO NICE! (: hehehee. thanks for the ride!

today was much much better and im happy. tho i think im gonna lay off my polka dotted vans for awhile. and wear my new SAFE adidas schoes. hahha. my new english teacher is surprisingly nice. actually, he bought me over cos he's a manu fan. HAHHA. he's really funny and i think at last, there's a good teacher out there and i ACTUALLY learnt something. cool. chinese was funny as usual. lao shi predicted me and ball to get b3 or A2. hahha. make us so sad. why not A1 ah? nevermind we shall work hard.

then after school, me sitt and nad left for queensway. we couldnt stop laughing cos we were just being our usual selves, talkng about usual stuffs.. FUNNY stuff. hahha. alot of private jokes. then i got my shoes and left the place. and i walked home in the rain k! eurgh. my poor shoes are wet. but nevermind, i've got my new shoes! (:

alright. anyway manu drew wit arsenal. im so tired now. and the score was 0-0. i watched it la. slept less than four hours. PHWOOOOOII!!! go go manu! <3

i dun like you anyway. its mutual. HAHAAh.

2006-01-03T00:23:00.000+08:00

people are so unpredictable. i wish this year passes by really fast. i hate all the stuff i'll probably be going thru this year.

i'll just study study study. then go to jc, i hope. then off to university. come out work. work work work till i die. somehow, i think this is how im gonna be living my life.

hope is a good thing.

anyway, i miss my clique so much. i wish i can just go back to 14! (just like ball) hahha.
it seems like... i just don't know who to confide in anymore.

things will be so different next year. definitely not for the better.

i think i'll just let my life revolve around football, studies, studies, studies and some good movies.

i miss pearlyn so much. in fact, i miss alot of people. and i don't want to see alot of people.
i miss chloe so much too.

THIS SUCKS. why cant chloe just stay in singapore. and pearlyn promote to sec four. well, at least ball's still around.

P.S: chloe i want pics of snowboarding and take care of yourself in america. i miss you so much. wish me luck for this year.

HAHHA i just read something on someone's blog just now. makes me rethink who im regarding as my friends. DAMN. think about holiday homework and improving your math instead. eurgh.

liverpool is taking a penalty now. go gerard. hahah. im off.

IM NOT LOOKIN FORWARD TO SCHOOL. AT ALL. damn;

BUSY!

2006-01-02T20:45:00.000+08:00

goshh im so busy now. i've been non stop shopping, walking, moving, watching for like so long. i've got so much stuff to get im like all panicky now.

SINCE WHEN BIBIBABA STOP SELLING CRESCENT UNIFORM. pfffftttt. and i queued so long. eurghhhh.

i need a new bag, pencil box and clothes.

GOSH!

NEW YEAR'S EVE!

2005-12-31T22:26:00.000+08:00

hahha. shuwie asked me to blog more so i shall (:

its new yr's eve today. GOODIE. man u match is in half an hour and i cant be bothered to watch any countdown or go esplanade cos DUH! there's a man u match. HAHHAHA. so i hope they'll win for my new yr present. (i wish they win. grumbles about draw wit birm)

was out to town yst. sis cut hair. me to go bibibaba to buy sch skirt. unfortunately i think everyone's like me. so there was this extremely long queue at bibibaba and i couldnt get my skirt. humph. i'll ty queensway on monday then. hhahaa.

looking for a new school bag. i saw this really nice one. but it cost $99 and its not branded or something. so i was trying to figure out why it costs $99. i dun really care for brands. but $99's a lil steep i think. humph. saw another one that costs $69. i think i'll get that. but it doesnt look too big. might not fit all the books i want. sighhhhh.

zara's sale aint too good. the clothes are only alright. i alr have the nicer ones. so it was like a waste of my time. ahahah. but zara kid's clothes are nice and i can fit into them. but the slogans were too kiddy. so in the end i dint buy any. sighhh

i need so many things yet i cant seem to find the time. last min shopping sucks. i still havent gotten my school books yet. so sue me.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE. may 2006 be great tho i doubt that. LOVE YA ALL! (:

A Day Not To Be Forgotten;

2005-12-29T12:30:00.000+08:00

[A Day Not To Be Forgotten]

On tuesday, we had clique outing! (: i've waited so long to go out and just hang out wit them. and we did it at sentosa! (: chloe's back YAY! and about everyone could come for the clique outing. Shuwie Ball Delia Pearlyn Chloe Ju and Brenda & Pearlyn's Little Sis and Nikki and Fanrix (: only sam and chrys could not turn up ):

anyway, our clique outings are cursed k! its always raining when we all meet up. First ESCAPE, then shuwie says Botanic Gardens also rain. Then now Sentosa. hahha. next time our clique outing shall be indoor k! hehh.

anyway we had lots of fun just pure playing. Nikki is really cute and Fanrix is super smart! me and delia had a great time parading near the orientation people. JOKING. hahha dunno why we kept walking there k. then after that we moved to a place wit alot of red ants! EEEEEEKSS. but there waas a mat there what. tempted. ok. the mat dint just appear there. that's a secret.

tanjong beach truly is the most deserted. hahha. oh and when it rained we hid under the security guard's tower! HAHHAHA. and it wasnt a good shelter at all! after we left, pearlyn ball brenda all took a cab cos of their dogs. and ju took the mrt home. me delia shuwie and chloe went habourfront to eat at pastamania and just chat. then shuwie's dad sent us to redhill.

i miss the clique so much. i wish we could just hang around and enjoy each other's company all the time. but sigh. sec four next yr.

im gonna be a turtle next year.

A Memory Untainted.

2005-12-29T12:05:00.000+08:00

[A Memory Untainted]

ahhhh. i've returned from korea! (: how has everyone been? i've missed loads of people. esp NAD (who im talking to now) hhahaha.

yeah izz was telling me to blog bout my holiday. so i thought. yeah i should. photos of it will only be shown to some people. HAHHAh. i detest winter clothes ):

anyway, let me start in point form so i can jolt my memory.

//FIRST/SECOND DAY
horrible plane flight. which lasted 6hrs. i REALLY HATE FLIGHTS. tho i watched sky high in the plane etc. played blackjack. hahahahha. then i couldnt sleep at all and the flight was from 11pm to 5am in the morning. clearing customs at korea and stuff.. it was alr 6am. temperature at the internation airport was -7 degrees celsius. took a bus to seoul. one hr ride. then took a domestic flight to this island. I HATE FLIGHTS. reached the island at 8am or so. flight was an hour. then immediately started the tour. tour guide's some guy called billy. he was bringing us to catch scenery and stuff. brought us to mountains. me, my bro, sis and cousin sean looked like the only people who climbed the mountains. tiring considering we didnt sleep at all! temp's really cold and you feel like your face is cracking. WORSE OF ALL. we were at an ISLAND. so its surrounded by sea! and with the sea comes STROND WINDS. which literally blew one third my life away. hahhah. after more sightseeing, waterfalls, shenanigans. we went for dinner (remember no rest at all) dinner was some 10 dishes. billy treated us to SOJU (23% alcohol) to keep warm. food was only alright.. average. we dint see no beef. so was disappointed. went to hotel. bellboy was EXTREMELY adorable. they all are. opens lifts and stuff. offered to help carry luggages. so when i TRIED my korean and him he was giggling away. CUTE. went to hotel room. was excited to see bed. dragged myself to bathe and fell on the bed unconscious. hahahah.

// THIRD DAY
rushed in the morning. had american breakfast. took off from the hotal. said BYE to bellboy. had to catch the morning flight to seoul. so we FLEW. slept on the plane. on touchdown, we met our NEW tourguide. this lady we called "dao you", this photographer who's a punk and this driver who's really COOL. hahahh. had a four hour bus ride to this ski resort. sight seeing along the way. went to some more mountains. attempted MORE mountain climbing. according to "dao you" 70% of korea is mountains. hahhah. then after all that. we reached the ski resort and slept in for the night. dinner was NOT favourable at all. again we saw KIMCHI everywhere. it was a living nightmare i swear. then there were this genetically radioactive bean sprouts that were REALLY SCARY everywhere (the four of us my bro, me, sis and sean discovered that) left the hotel in the night to get food. hahaha. then slept well. BTW it wasnt beds we were sleeping on. it was the TRADITIONAL korean way of sleeping. on the floor. tatami style. floor was heated. we were too tired to complain.

// FOURTH DAY
went to get ski stuff from ski shop. ski guys are REALLY cute. extremely funny. snowboarders too. trying hard to communicate wit each other tho. hahah. VERY LITTLE ENGLISH. and they thought that my bro and me were a couple. OH PLEASE. i was puking hella lot. shouting NO NO NO. hahahha. they said that singaporean girls are pretty ('cept that i thought korean girls look a fifillion times better. and the guys too) went for skiing lessons after that. skiied all the way till evening. then walked around the resort. brother decided korea's food is TOO sucky. so he bought olive oil, sausages, spaghetti and COOKED in the hotel room ala apartment. hahaha. then he invited the tour people to come over. there's this guy in my tour group. he's really hilarious. always carrying this jack daniels of his around to keep warm. hahaha. he's the funnyman of the group. always oversleeping. his wife is really nice! (:

// FIFTH DAY
free day for us. bro and sean went skiing. me and sis slept in. EXHAUSTION PLEASE. went to go sleigh riding. went to ice sculpture exhibition. hahha. then bro cooked again. hung around the resort. went to cybercafe. went bowling. went to arcade. went more grocery shopping.

// SIXTH DAY
left the ski resort. journey back to seoul. went to everland. their HUGE outdoor amusement park. sat some crazy rides. then hung around. it was so cold we dint dare sit the rollercoaster. i imagined not being able to survive the ride you see. frozen stiff. then the usual stuff. horrible dinner again. arghhh. just horrible food.

// SEVENTH DAY
went to the stairway to heaven INDOOR amusement park. we only had a few others there and food was on our own. so we managed to take only two rides. waiting time for a ride is over an hour. we took this hot air balloon thing and the viking. I HATE WAITING K. hhAHAHH. then had dinner. viking's really high k. like 40m! and the swing was almost vertical. screamed like crap. ride lasted 4mins. waiting time over an hour. ahhahaha.

// LAST DAY/ EIGHTH
woke up early. took photos wit bus driver. went for lunch. STILL NO BEEF. went to this war memorial place. everywhere was freezing. then went to DFS shop to buy snacks and stuff. and off to the airport at 3pm korean time. then reached singapore late. yep! that's the trip.

I left out alot of stuff. darn lazy. hahhaahha. well. maybe i'll tell more if i see ya all. PHOTOS EVERYONE. heeeee (:

on the whole. trip was great. skiing's awesome. food LOUSY to the point of extinction. PWAHHHHHHHH! haahha.